It's been a long time.

after 3 years plus... somehow or rather i needed to let things off my chest. Im not sure why but i cant seem to find someone who can really lend me a good listening ear and let me rant it out. It's been a horrible year. nothing went well since the start of apirl. Til now, im still struggling. issit for real that i still got only one more month to torlerate so my luck will come back again? no one knows for real. i just read my past posts... and seriously... out of 10, maybe only 2 are good and happy posts. the rest are just bad.

R/s recently for me is really bad. i duno why. like today, i tot i can bring myself up again and try to ask dar out, but she reply not feeling well. ask her where not feeling well, no reply. call no ans. the day before still can put some few msgs on msn in some way hinting abt how she felt, now i wan to ask her out once again to hold her.. oso cannot. bad luckkkkk. she is really different. i wish i can make things better. pls.. give me a chance to prove it?

dad side as usual.. damn crazy lately. the main thing now is that i need to find a better job that pays me on how much i work. not sucking me dry. its really irritating. im sick and tired of it. i hope the few emails i sent will have a reply soon. i wanna get out of that job asap.

sian.. another boring day. tml have to work again. i dont have alot of time to fool ard with anymore... pls give me a proper job so i can plan for my future porperlyyyyy!